There is no iota of doubt in me that a budding writer often faces situations of quandary whether he is writing rubbish. The problem is cognate to the diehard habit of looking oneself from points of view of others. If his works of creative expressions receive lukewarm response from the target readership; the writer is bound to entertain doubts about his ability as a writer and his relevance to the contemporary society. The problem with the writer is that he possesses better sensibilities than others. He feels he has a new vision, new vistas to bear witness or new truths to reveal. He is not only reflective, but also reactive to the indifference of the society meted out to him. He wants some one or the other to hearken to him.

He has enormous pent up feelings. He has to undergo catharsis to get relieved from his inner feelings of suffocation. The process is a process of cleansing of the muck - the muck of his inner feelings. It is the phenomenon of self-emptying. If you want to call it rubbish; you may call it so, without any inhibition and with impunity. Man today has no time - not even a breathing time, to reflect on what he is and absolutely no time to look at the nature and wonder its harmony, grace and beauty. He is seized up of one point agenda of profit maximization and maximization of happiness and in the process; he is chasing mirages and is getting disappointed time and again, oblivious of his pitiable state. He is not sensitive to arts and cultures.

If he purchases any work of art or fiction, the purpose is not to attune himself to finer sensibilities and enjoy, but for the purpose of improving interior decoration of his drawing room. I would like to paraphrase my views on the touchstone of my personal experience. I am not a writer of substance and one that can be reckoned with. My inner urge to give expression to my feelings, notwithstanding my poor skills of communication, I penned poetry in free verses in my mother tong. I submitted a copy of the compilation of my poetry in free verses to a prospective publisher for consideration for publication. To my quite disappointment, I received a rejection slip after a period of fortnight or so. Later on, when I have done some elementary study how books on poetry are getting published, I have come to know that most of the works are published by writers themselves, by shelling precious money from their pockets, knowing pretty well about bleak prospects of marketing their work and recovering even a fraction of their investment.

Failures and disappointments are not uncommon to writers. For instance, the manuscript of the famous writer Ayn Rand's 'The fountainhead' was rejected by twelve publishers before it was finally accepted for publication by Bobbs-Merrill. I have my first work- a religious tile was published by the Bhavan's University of Bharatiya Vidya Bhavan, Mumbai, India, a decade back; the publishers are still struggling to clear the stock of the of it. When I found no takers for my poetry in free verses in Telugu, I translated my pieces of poetry in to English and got summary of the same published in local English News papers. I compiled my published articles entitled 'Ethical Dimensions', on themes relating to ethics, meditation or contemplation etc., and submitted the manuscripts to a number of publishers for consideration for publication. I have received many a rejection slips. The stock reply in most of the cases has been that the work would not fall within the 'Book publication purview.' Some publishers want to know about the target readership, works of other authors on similar titles, what difference the present work makes in comparison to the existing works of others and how many copies of the work is expected to be sold in the years to come, year-wise etcetera.

I sincerely feel that it is not the domain of a writer to carry out market survey and analyse commercial viability of his proposed work. If you work on a technical title, preferably conforming to a syllabus of a curriculum or course of study, you will have brighter chances of getting your work published .In my second religious title; I have incorporated the prosaic translation versions of my poetry. A Delhi based publishers who had earlier published three of my technical works, showed inclination to publish my religious work. I availed the opportunity. I have my second religious title published in the year 2006. The publishers now bemoan that it is not moving from the book shelves of book shops. They are evidently losing money. I asked the publishers to put my religious title also in the web along with my other technical titles. They are reluctant to do so. I approached a relation of mine who settled in USA and who has recently authored a technical publication which has become popular in a short span of time. I asked him to put details of my religious title as well in his web. He said that he would soon do the needful and now on second thoughts, he asks me to know why I am bent upon putting my religious title in his web.